အေမရိကေရာက္ ခံစားခ်က္

ကၽြန္ေတာ့္တပည့္ေလး တစ္ေယာက္ေပါ့ အေမရိကကို ေရာက္သြားတာ ႏွစ္ႏွစ္ရွိသြားၿပီ။ အခုေတာ့ အထက္တန္းေက်ာင္း ေအာင္ျမင္ သြားၿပီးေပါ့။ မၾကာခဏ ဆိုသလို သူနဲ႔ online ေပၚမွာ စကားေတြ ေျပာျဖစ္တယ္။ ဒီလိုဖြံ႕ျဖိဳးတဲ့ ေနရာေဒသမွာ ေနထိုင္က်င္လည္ခြင့္ ရသြားတဲ့ သူ႔အတြက္ ကၽြန္ေတာ္ ၀မ္းေျမာက္မိတယ္။

ဒါေပမယ့္ သူအဲဒီမွာ မေပ်ာ္ရႊင္တဲ့ အေၾကာင္း ကၽြန္ေတာ္နဲ႔ အေၾကာင္းတိုက္ဆိုင္တိုင္း သူေျပာေလ့ရွိတယ္။ ဘာေၾကာင့္လဲ.. ဘာေၾကာင့္ မေပ်ာ္ရႊင္ရတာလဲ။ ေနထိုင္မႈ စနစ္ကအစ အရာရာ တိုးတက္ေျပာင္းလဲ သြားခဲ့တဲ့ ဘ၀တစ္ခုမွာ ဘာလို႔ မေပ်ာ္ရႊင္ရသလဲ စသျဖင့္ေပါ့ ေျပာျဖစ္ဆိုျဖစ္ေတာ့ ကၽြန္ေတာ္ဆီကို သူေရးထားတဲ့ diary မွတ္တမ္းေလး တစ္ခုပို႔လာပါတယ္။ ဖတ္ၿပီးတဲ့ ေနာက္မွာေတာ့ ကၽြန္ေတာ္ခံစားမိတာကေတာ့ လူေနမႈ ဓေလ့စရိုက္ခ်င္း မတူညီတဲ့ေဒသေတြမွာ ကၽြန္ေတာ္တို႔ေတြ လိုက္ေလ်ာညီေထြျဖစ္ဖို႔ ခက္ခဲတယ္ဆိုတာကို သူ႔စာေလးက ေျပာျပေနသလိုပဲ။ ေအာ္...ႀကီးႀကီ...ငယ္ငယ္ အိမ္ကိုေတာ့ လြမ္းၾကတာပါပဲ။

သူခံစားခဲ့ရတာေတြကို သူ႔ရဲ့ အေမရိက လူေနမႈဘ၀ကို အခုလိုေျပာျပခဲ့ပါတယ္။ သူ႔ရဲ့ diary ထဲက မွတ္တမ္း တစ္ခုပါတဲ့။

I was born in Yangon, Myanmar. Two years ago, my whole family immigrated to United States. On my way from the airport to our home, I saw a lot of modernized buildings and nice scenes. At that moment, I thought that this transition of my life would bring me happiness and success.

Before I immigrated to U.S., I went to Mercury for my 10th grade year and part of my 11th grade year. I was so glad to know all the teachers and have the opportunity to learn from them. They not only give us education but also guide us to the right path. Even though I meet with many new teachers in my life, I never forget them and I miss them so much. Because of their guidance I become a person who I am right now.

Everything in here is different from my home town, especially, the educational system. The main difference is that we don’t have to memorize word by word here. We just need to understand what we are being taught in class and study. That’s all. In Myanmar, the curriculum is the same for every school and every year. In America, the teachers choose their own curriculum; they choose what they will teach and what books they will use. Each class read various books and every year, the books they use are different from previous years.

Here, we do have to write a lot of essays. We have to write essays for English, History and other subjects. The cool thing is that we don’t have to write the whole essay in class as in Myanmar because the teachers want the essays to be in detail and typed. We get a few days to finish it. Even though we don’t have to memorize the lessons, we have to think a lot when we write essays or do projects.

In schools, internet is widely used. We have to use for research about the essays and the projects. I take Physics this year and the teacher always makes us do a lot of projects. Every time, he just give a paper or a package about what the project is about and when is the due date. We have to use internet to search what materials we need and how we are going to do the projects. Sometimes, it’s really hard. We have no idea about what we have to do. The thing I don’t like about it is doing presentation after finishing the projects. We have to explain about our projects in class and how it’s related to Physics’ concepts. I feel so nervous whenever I have to do presentation.

Honestly, I don’t like living here. Most of the people are selfish and rude. In class, I see some students saying bad words and yelling at the teachers. I also see students disturbing the class while the teacher is teaching and putting their legs on the table. Moreover, I notice that some girls have tattoos on their bodies and smoke cigarettes. I feel so bad when I see those things. I think that girls shouldn’t be like that.

When people ask me for help, I help them as much as I can. However, because of that, they take advantage of me. They know that I will help them for sure so they ask me more and more. When I need help, nobody is there for me. I feel sad.

I don’t mean that U.S. is not good. It is good as it has better educational system and advanced technologies. You can buy everything by just sitting in front of the computer and go anywhere you want using GPS. However, you can’t find happiness and warm kindness from people. It’s like living in a hotel where there is so much delicious food but no water.

Even though I have been here for two years, I can’t blend to American culture. It’s hard for me. I believe that change can cause loss. I don’t want to change. I don’t mean I haven’t changed. I did change. The way I look and the way I think about the world change everyday.

During these two years, I get a lot of life’s lessons. I learned that it’s more valuable to manage yourself instead of someone is telling you what you should do and you shouldn’t. If you are willing to do something, nothing can stop you. Once you have done wrong, the only thing there is left for you is the regret.

ဖတ္ၿပီးေတာ့ စိတ္မေကာင္း ျဖစ္မိတယ္။ ဘာပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္ ဘယ္ေနရာမွာပဲ ေနေန လူရယ္လို႔ ျဖစ္လာတဲ့ ေနာက္မွာေတာ့ ျပသနာနဲ႔ ကင္းႏိုင္တာ မရွိလို႔ ဘ၀ကို ေအာင္ျမင္တိုးတက္ေအာင္ ဆက္လက္ႀကိဳးစားဖို႔ ကိုပဲ ကၽြန္ေတာ္ တိုက္တြန္းခဲ့ပါတယ္။ ေအာင္ျမင္ပါေစ တပည့္ေရ...။